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Part One of the Pain Olympics 2020 series; a response to the opioid crisis, and the stigma surrounding it.

If you or anyone you know is suicidal, please refer to the link below

Feeling a bit lost today
slighted and caustic
I’ve been hearing a lotta shit
Seems we’re about to slip
Seems that our world has dipped
Think I’m about to tip
Or maybe its all the jib
Maybe its all the smoke
Maybe its all the rage
Maybe its all a joke
Baby I’m in a cage
Afraid that I’m underpaid
Afraid that I’m under read
Afraid im not innocent
just feeling ambivalent
Guilt is the word
Its burned into my mind
All the time I can’t find
A way out its just me
im my own enemy
Im not free
Never was
A good boy
A good man
Yes I am
I’ve got plans
I’ve got wants
I’ve got needs
I’ve got thoughts
Its the up
Its the side
Its the down
Thats inside
Of my mind
Yes its mine
Its the one thing
That keeps me alive
But I’m better off dead
So please chop off my head
Fill my body with lead
I have too much regret

i am not alright
I wake up in fright
how long am I sick
Before I get my fix

Trigger to the temple
Listen for the pop
Smash it to the tempo
Treat it like a god
Melts away the sorrow
Opens up the sky
Life is meaningful
Only when we’re high