http://www.crackcloud.ca Part One of the Pain Olympics 2020 series; a response to the opioid crisis, and the stigma surrounding it. If you or anyone you know is suicidal, please refer to the link below https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines Feeling a bit lost today slighted and caustic I’ve been hearing a lotta shit Seems we’re about to slip Seems that our world has dipped Think I’m about to tip Or maybe its all the jib Maybe its all the smoke Maybe its all the rage Maybe its all a joke Baby I’m in a cage Afraid that I’m underpaid Afraid that I’m under read Afraid im not innocent just feeling ambivalent Guilt is the word Its burned into my mind All the time I can’t find A way out its just me im my own enemy Im not free Never was A good boy A good man Yes I am I’ve got plans I’ve got wants I’ve got needs I’ve got thoughts Its the up Its the side Its the down Thats inside Of my mind Yes its mine Its the one thing That keeps me alive But I’m better off dead So please chop off my head Fill my body with lead I have too much regret Up Side Down i am not alright I wake up in fright how long am I sick Before I get my fix Trigger to the temple Listen for the pop Smash it to the tempo Treat it like a god Melts away the sorrow Opens up the sky Life is meaningful Only when we’re high